Saturday, December 8, 2012

Hearts Never Forget

They say hearts never forget, that whatever it is you're feeling, it all just stays there. Nothing can change when the heart speaks. Sometimes it very frustrating to understand why things so simple may sometimes feels like so complicated. Hahaha, I don't even know if I make sense at all. Some things are just too sensitive to be talked about. And without you knowing it, you can hurt people just by letting them know the truth. So some words are be better left unsaid than causing pain to those people you love. Nights, days, weeks have passed by so quick that you can't even find the time to listen to your own thoughts. And if you will have the chance to do it, words are just not enough to think or even write about it. As my mentor would say, "Just go with the flow...". This is what I am doing right now. And I will just wait what will happen tomorrow. Hearts never forget, but in my heart, I know I will choose the one who will love me more than I can love him.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Another Chance of Happiness

Another chance of happiness is what makes me go on these days. I have so many things on my mind right now. I want to write every word, every sentence written inside my head. I just don't know exactly how or where to start. For a month or so my life is hanging like I feel it's going to end anytime soon. I cannot explain even to myself why I feel this way. I just hope I am wrong. 
Love caught me at the right time in my life when I feel there is no one out there for me. Sometimes God surprises you in ways you can't imagine. I was surprised myself. I would like to say that I am okay now. But still it's not easy to believe just like that. I am just keeping my fingers crossed till I can be real sure that finally love finds its way to me. What the heck, I thank God I am happy now and I don't want any negative thoughts that will ruin my chance to love again. If this is fate, then so be it. Another chance of happiness? Why not?

Monday, June 18, 2012

My Day To Day

My day to day for the past three weeks is like finding myself all over again. My 1st day of training at work feels like going to 1st day of school. Half scared, half excited but still managed to finish everything with just one goal on my mind. I don't like grudges to dwell on my soul. But it helped me stand up and face alone my life with a little more confidence. I can't help wonder how people can judge me that easily when I have found out for myself that I am not that bad like someone think. Is it really about me being clingy to the people I love or is it their own insecurities that they're pointing my way? I may never know what or how they would react now. But honestly I don't care. I cry a lot, I admit. This is also my day to day now. But it doesn't mean I just make up all these things bothering me. I am just too comfortable with people I felt really cares for me. But now I can see. I am not blind anymore with their true colors. From now on I will love the people who are with me through my ups and downs. I will drop those people now in my life that made me feel like I am bad person. I will let them see my value in their lives but they will no longer be a part of my day to day.  

Sunday, April 29, 2012

You Can Never Hide

They say that no matter what you do, you can never hide from what is destined to be. And that what's meant to be will always find its way. We tend to always question why things are the way they are. Then we begin to change some things in our lives so that we will not cross the same problems or trials again. Only to find out that unconsciously we are still being on that same path all over again.
I am trying to deny what I feel. I am hiding from the truth as I always do. When I know deep down inside that no matter what I do, you can never hide or run because what's meant to be will always find its way.