Saturday, December 8, 2012
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Another chance of happiness is what makes me go on these days. I have so many things on my mind right now. I want to write every word, every sentence written inside my head. I just don't know exactly how or where to start. For a month or so my life is hanging like I feel it's going to end anytime soon. I cannot explain even to myself why I feel this way. I just hope I am wrong.
Love caught me at the right time in my life when I feel there is no one out there for me. Sometimes God surprises you in ways you can't imagine. I was surprised myself. I would like to say that I am okay now. But still it's not easy to believe just like that. I am just keeping my fingers crossed till I can be real sure that finally love finds its way to me. What the heck, I thank God I am happy now and I don't want any negative thoughts that will ruin my chance to love again. If this is fate, then so be it. Another chance of happiness? Why not?
Monday, June 18, 2012
My day to day for the past three weeks
is like finding myself all over again. My 1st day of training at work feels
like going to 1st day of school. Half scared, half excited but still managed to
finish everything with just one goal on my mind. I don't like grudges to dwell
on my soul. But it helped me stand up and face alone my life with a little more
confidence. I can't help wonder how people can judge me that easily when I have
found out for myself that I am not that bad like someone think. Is it really
about me being clingy to the people I love or is it their own insecurities that
they're pointing my way? I may never know what or how they would react now. But
honestly I don't care. I cry a lot, I admit. This is also my day to day now.
But it doesn't mean I just make up all these things bothering me. I am just too
comfortable with people I felt really cares for me. But now I can see. I am not
blind anymore with their true colors. From now on I will love the people who
are with me through my ups and downs. I will drop those people now in my life
that made me feel like I am bad person. I will let them see my value in their
lives but they will no longer be a part of my day to day.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
I am trying to deny what I feel. I am hiding from the truth as I always do. When I know deep down inside that no matter what I do, you can never hide or run because what's meant to be will always find its way.