There are things I wanted to say, leading, and eventually finding my way back to you. I just sometimes feel like it will never be enough. Somehow I know that all my efforts will just be useless if I know that it will only be me. Now, tell me, am I not worthy to get your love back? Or are you too proud to even say that you still love me like you do back then? It is really confusing how a love like ours that was so strong can passed us by just as quickly as the water running into the ocean.
Looking back, I have no regrets that I have loved you more than I have loved anyone. I know deep in my heart that the love that we have found will not fade in time. So, until the time we do find each other again, I am going to be where you have left me behind. I will still be here to welcome you back into my arms. And until that time, my love will keep the two of us alive.You have my word that the road that I will travel from this moment on will surely be finding my way back to you.
We try to let go of the past and try to move on hoping that somewhere along the way, someone will come and rescue us from where we are. But the truth is we tend to fake it and let yourself believe that at last you've found the love you have been waiting for all this time. But you're just fooling yourself that this is possible. Nobody can erase and heal your wounded heart but only you yourself.
I have learned that before you can open your heart and love again, you need to get through the pain of looking back and see how, where, and what exactly made you get to that part. like in surgeries, you need to see deep into the patient's body to see the root cause of the disease. In a failed relationship, you need to look back and remember all the good and bad times that you and your ex partner have been through. If possible, write down all the good and the bad that you can recall. Then look back to the last time you've argued. You will see from there why it all ended the way it was.
Now, start letting go of what happened between the two of you. You can see for yourself that everything's all in the past and nothing can ever change that. It doesn't matter any more who's fault it was. What matters now is that you can now clearly see the reason why it didn't last like you knew it would. Take the time to start your life putting all of your past behind. It is a lesson you should never forget. No need to be scared any more if you happened to start loving another person again. I can't promise you that the next time won't have its flaws. Just make sure don't make the same mistakes you had then.
I believe that love is always at our doorsteps. You just need to work it out to make that love last. Dreaming and loving are just the same. You need to spend extra time and energy to make it come true and last at the same time. Your heartaches and failures are not hindrances to reach your goal of being happy. Instead, make them your inspiration to grow and love some more. As what they say, it is more fulfilling to have loved than not to have loved at all.
