I am not dating now.I prefer flowers especially peach roses.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Can you tell me what i can give you to be happy now?
You don't need to give me anything. I am happy NOW.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Lessons Of Life
I've been reading comments and messages from different sites for two consecutive weeks now. Some comments made laugh and others made me think some more. I have been writing posts and articles for some time now. And it just struck me that I am now learning my way where I want to be in the future. It was really amazing to feel this way again. I've thought long ago that my life will just flow according to the life my family was destined to. Now, I can see clearly the lessons of life and what I can still learn after each lessons that passed me by. I am eager to learn more about things I like. But I will also find my way to love every minute of lessons life would bring. There will come a time that I will cry again. And I am willing to accept that knowing that happiness is just along the way.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
"Just My Thoughts"
I am into my usual depression for the last couple of days.(including today) This is starting to get me worried. I know in my heart that I am a changed woman after my year of transition. But still here I am again for the past days, reminiscing 18 years of my life. It saddens me to think that after a year of getting through everything, my heart and my mind are still struggling between facing the truth and moving on or just get myself blindfolded so not to see what is really happening. (I hope I'm making sense even to myself...) The truth? The truth that I've left my life along with the only man I've loved for more than half my life. I am face with the truth now that I am afraid of starting my life again with a man who loves me dearly. Do I really need this now? Or should I just let it pass and just be alone for whatever years or months I've left? To just be alone for a change? I need to find the answers now for myself. I just hope it'll be sooner. All of these are just my thoughts...( For those who would argue or react with what I've written, Please don't... This is just because I'm depressed and I need to get these things out of my system.)
Monday, April 12, 2010
" To Marry or Not To Marry "
To marry or not to marry??? That was on my head last night. Of course, I am not about to get married. My mama and my cousin went to my grandmother for a simple dinner last night. That was one of their topic. And grandma said that there is no need to get married to be happy. Get a life time partner without the sanctity of marriage. I wonder what my 19 year old cousin think about marriage now? If a lot of people around her think the same way. Our religion and our emotional as well as our life experiences clash before our very eyes. It is sad that I think the same as my grandmother. I can't help but agree with her. And I've learned about that for real from my experiences. But I wouldn't want to advise my cousin not to marry. I am living my life NOW. But marriage is not one of my options. I just hope she will not have the idea to ask me about it. I don't want to lie that i still believe in marriage. Please don't ask...
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